“You are an idiot”, she shouted at
me. It was just another fight between us. Fights had become a routine
now-a-days. Marriage life sucks.
“Yes, I am. To be married to such an
arrogant woman for 6 months, I must be an idiot”, I fought back.
“I don’t want to live with you
anymore”, she said, her voice breaking.
“Please get out of my sight then”, I
yelled. Enough is enough. I couldn’t bear with her torture anymore. Our
relationship had reached the threshold. This had to end today.
“I HATE YOU”, was her final words. I
expected her to retaliate more. She didn’t utter a word then. She stood there
for a while, looking at me. She then turned back and started leaving all of a
sudden. A part of me wanted to pull her back. But my ego pulled me back. “Let
her go”, I thought. There I stood, still, watching her back as she slowly
disappeared from my vicinity.
There was a calm followed by the
storm. I stood there for a few minutes as my eyes couldn’t save what it had
just captured. A woman who would never back off from any fight left me all of
a sudden. “Is this the end?” I questioned myself. “Was I too harsh?” “Should I
have stopped her?” my heart raised a thousand questions. My mind remained numb
as a stone. “Maybe she is a stone. How could she leave me just like that? It’s
her fault. I can live my life happily and peacefully now”, I consoled myself
and left to the office.
A few days passed. I
was happy without her. I was happy all alone. I was happy without having to
argue for every little thing. “Hurray!! I’m finally happy”. Life seemed normal.
But with every passing day, I felt something was missing. There was no one to
send me off with a smile every morning. There was no one to receive me when I was
tired in the evening. Was I missing her?
One fine day, I was lying in my bed. I felt so tired after a
long day. My eyes were burning like hell and they were desperately in search of
some sleep which seemed to be nowhere visible. “What did I do? Even sleep left
me”, I was irritated. But this wasn’t happening for the first time. Sleepless
nights had become a routine now-a-days. But I was not alone, loneliness
accompanied me all the time. Was I missing her? There was a dead silence that
filled the house. I hated this silence. The house sounded like a funeral. But
this funeral had no visitors. After several failed attempts at sleep, I gave up
and turned on the music player to kill the silence. People say that “music can
be a medicine to your wounds”, but it just aggravated mine. Every song that was
played reminded me of her. All those beautiful memories which I shared with her
came rushing to my mind. I tried hard to push her thoughts away, but the more I
tried to forget her, the more I remembered her. Me trying to forget her was
like the left eye trying to look at the right eye. Was I missing her?
“Why don’t you just sleep without thinking of all these bull
shit?” I was angry with myself. I had a meeting the next day and I really had to
catch some sleep. I finally decided to shut down all the thoughts and turn off
my eyes. I decided to check the time once. I turned on my mobile. It read 11.46
PM, but there was something else on it too. There she was, on my wallpaper,
still smiling as if she isn’t responsible for any of these. “How could she even
smile after doing all these to me? But wait… Is she really smiling right now?
What if she too misses me? Was I missing her?” my mind started debating again.
I was holding the mobile with my head facing down, fully immersed in her
thoughts. Suddenly I felt a drop of water fall on my hand. I was shocked when I
realized that my eyes were the source of that drop. I couldn’t prevent them
from dropping. That moment, I dropped my ego. Yes, I was missing her badly. I
was missing her warmth. I was missing her odour. I was missing her blue eyes. I
was missing her sharp nose. I was missing her short hair. I missed her
completely. But more than anything, I missed myself.
Enough is enough. I didn’t want to miss her anymore. I
shouldn’t have let her go. She was everything to me. I wanted her on my side
till my last breath. I wanted to see those beautiful eyes right now. I didn’t
know if I had gone mad or something. I just got up from my bed, took my car
keys and rushed to the door. The clock read 11.57 PM. Yes, I was mad. My ego
interrupted,” Why should you go to her? Let her come to you”. I slapped my ego
and proceeded towards the door. I opened them in a hurry. As I was about to
step out, I found a human figure with blue eyes, short hair and a sharp nose,
standing outside the door. Yes, it was her. There she stood, full of tears. She
looked so disturbed. Her face was so dull. But she was still beautiful. She
looked me in the eye.
“You are an idiot”, I shouted at her, looking deep into her
blue eyes.
“Yes, I am. To be married to such an arrogant man for 6
months, I must be an idiot”, she said.
“I don’t want to live with you anymore”, I said, trying hard
to control my laughter.
“Please get out of my sight then”, she said, laughing.
“I hate you”, I said and waited for her response.
The words ceased. The next second, her hands were around my
back. The air between us disappeared. Whoever discovered that air exists
everywhere was a fool. The clock struck 12. Both the hands of the clock kissed
each other and so did we. Both those hands will leave each other in a minute, but
I would never leave her. It was the beginning of a new day and it was the beginning
of a new life for us. We will fight even more, we will hit each other even
more, but we will love each other even more too. That moment I realized that “music
can be a medicine to your wounds”, for me, her voice was that music.
“People say that we have only one
life,
But we share the only life we have
with our spouse,
That’s why we call them our life
partner.
We hit each other, we fight with each
other,
But we can’t live without each other.
Fights are a part of every
relationship,
Treat your spouse as your gift and
understand them well,
Life will be beautiful”.
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